One Way Street

Here I am in this end,
I think I am lost once again.
This ain’t something new,
I’ve been in this road, I know, I knew.
Why am I always heading,
To a road this dreading.
Once again, I gave in,
Here I am dyin’
When will I learn enough!
When will I stop believing this bluff!
All I wanted is just to be loved,
Something, I just can’t get enough.
Did I expect much?
Maybe, I’m just not enough.
“I am a friend.”
This broken heart can not be mend.
Goodbye maybe the hardest word,
But I’m choosing it ‘coz everything  seems blurred.
I don’t want to hold on.
Because I am facing this alone.
I hope I’d never face this road again.
And have learned my lessons by then,
I keep on praying that I’d find the right path.
And just be happy at last.

Not Today

 by Trina Rose P. Ricablanca

September 2, 2010

My day is over

I already closed the door
Turned the TV and lights off
I’m ready to hug my pillow and doze off
The rain keeps pouring 
And I just keep on turning
There’s something that bothers me
More than the single sound of the pouring rain
More than the temperature that shivers my skin
It is him who I keep on dreaming
Remembering his face so close, I feel like melting.
Remember how he pulls me away from my world
And gets me so weak into my knees as he touches me and hold
I never got to see but I got to feel,
His fingers slowly filling the empty spaces between mine
Though I wanted to hold on longer
But it should not be like that forever
My mind is holding back my heart
Telling me I’m not ready to give him my part.
How I cry those things are on the right time
How I cry he’s the right guy.
Signs were not evident
His true feelings were not apparent.
But the feeling every time he’s acting like mine,
My soul and body were electrified.
The feeling overwhelms me 
Though he’s not a certainty of a happily-ever-after story.
But how great it will be, when my Romeo comes along,
Love me like the prince whom I belong.
iamtwixietops ツ

Seeking Passion

If my 2011 is about self discovery, I am hoping for a passionate 2012. I know it has been three months since the year started but I know, it has never been too late to start planning something. Honestly, I had been a bit frustrated since all my plans for this year didn’t work out. I had plan A, B and C that I wish I can pursue but unfortunately, NOTHING worked out and after three months, nothing new is happening in my life and I am so scared to get out of my newly built comfort zone. I am still scared now. But, don’t get me wrong. I don’t intend to do some drastic change with my lifestyle or anything that can surprise anyone from my circle. Self conditioning maybe the right term for this.

What do I intend to condition in myself?

1. On how I perceive failure.
Failure is one of the things that scare everyone of us to do something different. We are scared that we might fail and we might not get the positive result that we wish for. However, we must learn that once we fail, there is an additional experience that we can share the world. It helps us grow into a better person. Some say, the more failure you experienced, the more chances for you to succeed.

2. On how I perceive Fear.
Fear is the single most element that keeps anyone from succeeding. Because of it, we tend to make a number of excuses not to make a single step. This is one thing that we should get rid off and we should know the signs that we are already scared rather than feed our excuses and do nothing.

3. Never get tired of planning and creating your goal.
Be goal oriented. A day with a goal is very important to get things done. Whether it be a simple goal about your work, about your personal life or any aspect as long as something worth while is done everyday.

4. Read, Explore and Research more.
Some people say, we are all the same except with one thing. The books or articles that we read and eventually influence us in any way. They also say, in five years, we will become the person that we admire a lot today. With that, we should look for a role model or people that we can look forward to. Get up and never be lazy to discover new things in life. Read more and never be complacent with your life even if you have the best life in the world. As per Steve Jobs, stay foolish and stay hungry. From then, it can trigger your start button for new discoveries.

5. Look back and evaluate.
Do some contemplation on how your life did for the past day, week, months or years which ever is comfortable for you. It can help you track how far did you go and what are the things you haven’t done and can help you plan for your next goal.

However, never forget that no one gets successful over night. It needs hard work and too much guts and courage to face them. Let’s face them together and in the next years and months, we can say that we had been different from who we used to be. Let’s do it with one single step at a time. No need to rush. Everyday is a new day and be ready for a new adventure each and every single day.

PS: I had this drive to write something about passion because of this inspirational blog that I just subscribed. The Wake up Cloud is my inspiration and I am planning to read everything single post of Henri Juntilla. I encourage you read his blog as well to get more tips on how to live a passionate life. Reading his blog is time well spent! ~!~

Why Blog?

I started blogging last 2009 and this blog is merely a ranting blog for me. Its like a real “Baggage Counter” which just tells everything about negative vibes I had for a certain part of my life. It was like my online diary that I never publish in any of my social networking sites like Facebook and Twitter. It was something I was not proud of. Until then, I realized, why am I not writing about my happy thoughts and was dwelling much about negative stuff in my life which always gave me a heavy feelings every time I read it. By then, I started blogging when I am happy and record all the happy thoughts that is running in my head. It was not easy at first because, I am not born writer and I am not a good one. However,  Just this year, I started taking more pictures, capturing those memories with people I love and posting those here.  It’s like, opening my life everyone and letting them know I exist. Most of the people who knows me personally would always think I am passive and I know, I don’t usually speak much in a crowd. I don’t speak up and open my self up. This is the reason why I blog. To let them know I exist and I also have my own voice that I wanted to heard. This is also the place I put my random thoughts into words.
Unlike before, I write based on my emotions. Now, I write because of what I think I should write. Never underestimate blogging because it can reach people that you never thought you would know and you would influence. I know, I still haven’t found my niche in this blog because of a number things that I am interested in and I’m still not sure which area should I concentrate however, I know, soon, I’ll know about it and all will just flow and follow.
Why blog?
1. This is your Voice.
Because of this, you could be heard. You can inspire, you can motivate and most of all, you can influence people.
2. It allows you to showcase your areas of expertise.
Wether it be about finance, fashion, consultation, your business or whatsoever, it gives you the edge and allows you to show everyone what you are good at.
3. Doesn’t only showcase your expertise but also your passion.
It’s two different things. Passion is something you will do even without being paid for.
4. It serves as your online diary
Allows you to monitor your growth and gave you the idea where you had been and the thoughts you have had in the past thus, makes you evaluate how your year turned to and what are the areas that you should improve.
5. Also gives you access to what others think about
You might have your own opinion about certain topics but because of the reader’s comments and insights, it gives you some thoughts and new ideas as well. And since you are also following other people’s blog too, it can give you some “light bulb” moments and thus, allows you to create another interesting topic. It could also be a door to a new world and let you explore on other areas you never thought would tap your interest.
**Some people blog to earn money however, I haven’t so, I can’t add this up to my list.**

To sum it up, BLOGGING is not about BRAGGING, its about speaking up and extending yourself to your readers. For me, it is about inspiring, motivating and encouraging everyone to do things they are passionate about. Blogging is where you could see freedom is. Freedom to speak up, freedom to tell your own story, freedom to explore new things, freedom to know new people and freedom to know yourself more.

iamtwixietops ツ

A New Way to Save Your Money

Just this morning I was able to receive my BPI Save-Up Card which looks like this:
photo credit from this site
I enrolled for this BPI service last month when I got curious when I saw the flyers which says, it will AUTOMATICALLY deduct certain amount from your pay roll to your savings account. It made me feel giddy because since I worked this year, I rarely had the guts and ability to save up. No matter how much I like because I am some kind of an impulsive buyer. It allows you to save up without effort. The first thing you do is apply for a BPI account. Good thing was, I have one because of my payroll from my company. Then, apply for the BPI Direct Save – Up account which will allow you to save at least 250 php or save up to 10-20% every pay day depending on your preference.  You could also choose whether to save your money twice a month (every pay day) or monthy (every end of the month). 
I highly recommend this way of saving to those people who had a hard time saving up like me. At least, you can save a certain amount from your salary per month and since it will fall to a different account number which is not an ATM based account.
You can access your Save – up money balance through BPI express online and BPI express Mobile. 
But first, you must activate the enrollment of your BPI Direct Account in BPI express phone..
1. Call 89-100
2. Press 1 for Express Teller
3. Key-in your 11-digit access number (last ten digits of your card number and the first digit of your JAI- Joint Account Indicator)
4. Key-in the UNique Temporary Telephone ID number (will be mailed to you with the card and you can change this number and will serve as your password to your account)
5. Enter your preferred TIN.
After changing your TIN, you can acquire for your balance and could allow you to do more transactions. 
**PS: there are times that you can forget that you have applied to this Save up account and might think you are loosing some of your hard earned money!haha!NEVER EVER FORGET about your SAVE up account.  =-p